It feels like a challenge to describe the matrix of thoughts and emotions I’m currently experiencing. There are threads I can pull forth:
-meeting me where I am at
-wanting to be somewhere else
-knowing that there are many truths, many ways to be good
-wanting to participate
-beaing angry that learning to participate involves a humility I can’t seem to muster
-and that wanting to participate seems to reinforce other’s conviction that there is one truth.
I sat in shul this morning and felt triggered and alternating calm course through me. There are two things at work inside me. One is that this is my Jewish community, it claims to be traditional, and I want to participate in it. Two is that there are many ways to be good. And there are many ways to be a good Jew.
**imagination is the vehicle by which we increase knowledge.